learning while living.

Living and learning is the best way to go. Why as a college student are people SO dependent on alcohol to equal a "good time" ... I don't get it. Im not gonna lie and act like im little-miss-perfect because I know that im not, but I have never felt that alcohol could or would determine my fun only add a lil to it. I feel like a lot of people are misguided out there. And if i see so many people at my school (which is not a party school by far) then it must be at such high rates at other schools. I just don't understand. I know day by day I can only do whats best for ME but I can't help but to think about all the other people out there that are making bad decisions, blowing ALL their money, and ultimately hurting themselves. I just look to God for strength to peresevere. Like I said I know I'm not little-miss-perfect but I do know that I have a lot of belief in God and His will. I just wished that I could reach out to all the poeple.

One of my biggest fears in life is to be a hypocrite, I know there is a lot I need to change about myself but at times I get confident in my flaws because I know that A LOT of peoples bad outweighs all of my by far.I try to be the person I wish I could be and that I wish those around me would be. But I feel like at the end of the day me trying so hard and people trying so little makes me that much more depressed about the way the world works and how people are. And honestly, I know that is this gonna sound SO corny... but it makes me think of the Black Eyed Pea song "Where is the Love"
I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found