"808's and HEARTBREAK"

"there is nothing wrong with change if it is i the right direction"

-winston churchill

So I've been a fan Kanye West for the past 3 years now... and everything he puts out there as an artist I've felt was GOLD from his production on Jay-Z albums to his College Droput, Late Registration, & Graduation. So when I heard about 808's I was expecting the same Kanye, and I feel like alot of people were too. I was neglecting to remember that people are ALWAYS evovling and after the death of his mother and break up with Lexi his fiancee I don't think its fair to think that Kanye could possibly be THE SAME person. Kanye is definitely living life differently. 808's is on a another level than Kanye's other albums.

YES kanye is a hip hop artist NO kanye doesn't have to continously produce stereotypical hip hop.

At first when I previewed 808's on myspace I liked it, but I was not full impressed. I felt like Kanye overused the auto-tune affect and he was being more of a singer than a rappper. Overall just was not impressed. But, last night for some reason I couldn't sleep. So I started listening to my ipod and I put on the whole album.. I wanted to see how I liked it when I was JUST focusing on the music.. not doing anything else. I basically let every song play I LOVED IT ♥ I came to the realization that if it wasn't Kanye that put out that album everyone love it.. but because we all have this idea that he has to be this "i don't give a F**K" hip hop artist instead of AN ARTIST PERIOD we've shut our minds from really giving 808's a chance.

I loved the 80's vibe of "Paranoid" and the desperation in "Say You Will" and of course the struggle in "Pinnochio Story". No 808's and Heartbreak isn't the Kanye I feel in love with, but its the Kanye thats developing HIS OWN as an artist, free from a mold, uninhibited

i love it.

"when you ASSUME you make an ass out U and ME"

So basically I had a little experience yesterday that opened my eyes and it really made me want to write.

I was having dinner yesterday at a restaurant with some friends and as the busboy came over to my side to clear my plate I COINCIDENTALLY picked up my phone the same time he grabbed my plate. Then he looked at me and said "Your cell phone wasn't going anywhere... I have a cell phone of my own". The man happened to also be Black. Immediately I was dumbfounded I quickly responded "I didn't think that my phone was going anywhere". The man basically thought that I thought low enough of him to think that he was a thief. I was immediately offended who was this man to think that I was a judgmental person? In the first place I am already very conscious of how I put myself out there and because I am very conscious about what people think of me (yeah its bad but I can't help it). So I wouldn't ever prejudge someone because I believe that everyone deserves the benefit of the doubt. The simple fact that this man thought that I was being racist or prejudge of him based on his look when were THE SAME RACE just baffled me. He and I are one in the same, I know there are many things that do make us different but his exterior is what matches mine what people use to categorize us. I could never just label him a thug or theif just because of what he looks like. His whole statement just didn't make sense to me. His action just really made me think of how much us as a society are too pessemistic of others. Why? Why couldn't he have thought I was just picking up my phone to make a call or send a text? The whole situation just really hurt my heart because I really mean well but it just seems that sometimes there are just gonna be those people who are gonna think the worst. . .

learning while living.

Living and learning is the best way to go. Why as a college student are people SO dependent on alcohol to equal a "good time" ... I don't get it. Im not gonna lie and act like im little-miss-perfect because I know that im not, but I have never felt that alcohol could or would determine my fun only add a lil to it. I feel like a lot of people are misguided out there. And if i see so many people at my school (which is not a party school by far) then it must be at such high rates at other schools. I just don't understand. I know day by day I can only do whats best for ME but I can't help but to think about all the other people out there that are making bad decisions, blowing ALL their money, and ultimately hurting themselves. I just look to God for strength to peresevere. Like I said I know I'm not little-miss-perfect but I do know that I have a lot of belief in God and His will. I just wished that I could reach out to all the poeple.

One of my biggest fears in life is to be a hypocrite, I know there is a lot I need to change about myself but at times I get confident in my flaws because I know that A LOT of peoples bad outweighs all of my by far.I try to be the person I wish I could be and that I wish those around me would be. But I feel like at the end of the day me trying so hard and people trying so little makes me that much more depressed about the way the world works and how people are. And honestly, I know that is this gonna sound SO corny... but it makes me think of the Black Eyed Pea song "Where is the Love"
I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found

all hallows eve.

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So John Legends "Evolver" came out this past Tuesday and its so amazing. I love old school soul like Motown's Smokey Robinson and Marvin Gaye and its been hard trying to find new age artist with the same authenticity, but I've definitely found it in John♥ This album is really great. His vocals are pure and the emotion is real. Honestly, his talent excites me. Im just really blown because I lost my IPOD so now I can only listen to the album when im on the computer, and I get distracted from life when im on the computer. LOL idk i cant really multitask.


Im so excited!! It is finally the weekend again. AND its Halloween, I just know a bunch of crazy shit is gonna happen lol. I've been having the hardest time tryna think of a legit costume because im not tryna look like slut and i dont wanna look cheesy. Its really hard to find a good medium. I just hope everyone stays safe, but has FUN ;)